GOGOGO!!!~~ work hard

wah... this is my 17 blog adi.. so fast.. i didn't expect that i can write so many thing... erm... after so many sad thing the few week... erm.. i think i starting to study hard now... last few week.. when i taking a book.. sure thinking about computer... now i think i starting to concentrade in study.. because my class mate.. all start study hardly adi... i think i'm the slowest wan.... my math result were drop... and same as all subject... this make me have the power to start study... if not... i think playing game now and not writing blog now... i write blog is to improve my english ma... so... erm... if i'm free and got mood... i think i will write some essay here.. erm.. but nobody mark for me.. sian...but nvm... i print out and give my school to mark... :p...and i think i found a partner that can study together... and last her result is quite same level with me.. but now... starting to get higher then me adi.. 555.. nvm.. i will try my best to win her...hehe... you wait me.... oh ya.. to day jus have a hair cut.. but the service is getting bad... didn't help me dry my hair after wash... and didn't ask me wan put gel or not... haiz... but still ok la... cut until very nice... :p... ok la... stop here... my mom back.. lolz...

unhappy week...

i'm back... dunno how to start to write adi... one week only didn't write blog.. haiz... erm.. how to say leh.. this week.. can say i'm unhappy lo... about my band again... i think i found out what is the reli problem of my band now... is the fuck of leader... thursday all form five AJK is have a meeting.. first.. is nothing special.. we talk about the AGM thing lo... we hardly make up our mind... the name list are our... haiz.. but i still dun like it.. nvm.. after that.. more sad thing happen... i ask them... will them coming back after AGM... no wan agree to coming back attend and be a ahli back... our drum major.... and can say leader say he is sellfish... and will no coming back.. ok.. nvm... then i starting to think back... the word.. sellfish.. i think i refresh back my memori back.. this year... all the thing i say... the leader nvm listen and do.. that i make me very very angry... and at the meeting i say out the thing that i always say but still haven't done yet... he make a face like fu yen at that time.. i have no word to say any more... i have no hope to them.. and my band... in this year... if a leader like that... will no accept people yi jian.... sellfish with his idea.. then you better go to hell!!! i reli reli angry with him now... yesterday got a pameran... i didn't go... bcoz of this problem.. i dun wan to talk and work with this kind of ppl... and be his fren.. suk man.. got a fren like this... no mood to write adi.. that all...

5 year feeling at band... but jus write liao one year only..

can't sleep.. so write something here..
keep thinking about my band... time was running oo fast... now i already attend my band have 5 years time... so fast.. i remember quite clearly when i was form 1... why i attend band??? i also dunno.. bcoz of fren... nop... i attend band by myself.. i go the activiti alone when the first time... and after few time.. i brought my good fren. tze zyn come to join too.. when that time.. we are very happy.. all my band member all are frenly and displin... but i was the only one that was most naughty in the band...when all the AJK is scolding and fa people at all the time... I was the few people inside there.. haiz.. when that time.. although i and my fren always give those senior scold.. but we still happy when we practice together.. and one sad is about a dui... erm.. huar shi chao... all my fren can attend and i'm the only one that can't attenf the dui.. at that time... i say to myself.. i wan to change myself.. dun give them look down on me... so i starting to change.. but very slow.. hehehe.... when form one after Agm.. the war is start... sad thing is coming and people is quearall with each other... all the ajk always yi jian bu he,... so always quearall... when meeting.. at first no that serions la... when i at form 1 la.. i dun this kind of thing wan.. bcoz still was a junoir.. all this thing i know after form 4 i was a ajk stor keeper... go back to form one.. erm... i remember when AGM that day.. alot for ppl cry.. bcoz of one of our senior that we like didn't get the drum major place and the people was take the place was the people that we dislike... so many of us cry bcoz of that bad news.. ok... that day is over.. the band was still continue... then have a dui is hari kebangasaan.. dunno which day i cry... 555... bcoz of too naughty and my senior fa me... got another day... hole junoir was been fa by senior... all of the girl cry... i forget what happen adi.. jus know got this thing happen.. :p 5555555... english too bad... can't write what i'm thinking about... sad... but write for myself to review nia.. :P..
i think i write until here first... if i got mood then i will continue it... now dunno wan to write what... erm... next time story will be a very sad story for me.. bcoz all is in my mind... this thing i pass.. can't change it.. i jus hoping now my band.. dun like that adi... dun always quearall each other... this is bad... i was so scare after agm... 4 year after agm for me always got bad thing happen for my band.. form 1... all are no happy with the drum major... form 2... after agm... my trumpet part senior... was leave be bcoz of the pangkat that he get.. he is the one that at form one was that peolpe that we like can't et the drum major place wan.. and got a stor keeper... is ok for him with that pangkat.. but at form 2... after agm.. he get bendahari that he dislike... and i know why he leave... i dunno how to write out... form 3... unexpect thing happen to agm too... all the pangkat was take by form 4 stundent that bigger then my form wan la.... althought they are younger then us... but they always no attend the activitis... and the drum major suck!!!~~~ dunno how to say him.. form 4... haiz.. more cham.. drum major is a no resposible ppl... haiz.. got one time jus 5 ppl attend this band activiti only.. then he say he can't take it any more... then letak jawatan suddenly.. omg.... that time i cry again... i have a meeting with all my form people and i scold all off them... What you all wan do now... haiz.. but after this year... the band is growing up... when at jan....
after 6 month... we have a good teacher... coz 4 year didn't have a teacher adi.. make our band suck.. and now we have one..!!! but jus teach us about 2 month only la.. is a very good teacher.. :p... i dun wan to saw my band going down back adi... up man.. my band.. after agm.. i dunno what will happpen again.... i damm worry about it.... 55555555.... who can help???

Bad result

i'm back... haiz... after holiday... back to school... teacher giving all our exam paper....5555... when i saw my exm paper.. my tears is going to well up in my eyes... so bad my result... mt i jsu get 40++ only.... walao... normally i can get above 60 and higher... today get my math result... Oh my god!!!!!!! haiz... Pm lagi cham... the second that i fail this subject in this year... jus have twise exam only... i fail both of it... wan cry liao... 5555... haiz.. and many many more la.... haiz... all result suck.... all dropping adi... haiz.. need help!!!! no one will help me wan la.. that my own result.. i think i must start work hard... pump my mt back!!!.. sure will not lose to some of my fren... next exam.. this exam they laugh me... but not next... you all wait and see la... hehehe... hope someone will push me and encourage me to study hard and study together lo.. if not one ppl study very sian wan leh... hope can find someone la... :P.. o ya... forgot to say something here.. last saturday.. have a ..... la.. hehehe.. dunno how to say it.. is like preparing for Agm wan all.. for my band... ask the junior some question lo... erm... what thier idol to be band leader and other la.. like setiausaha and bendahari.. in eng dunno how to say... stok keeper and other la... and some question is like who the ajk most you like.. and who the most ajk you dislike... i'm the ajk that most dislike by them.. 5555... they say me is very strict... and very xiong... hm... ya.. i'm like that.. at band i'm like that lo.. bcoz if a ajk didn't do the bang yang to let them see hor.. they will climb until your heard wan... so must be xiong... hehehe... jus hope they will grown up after agm.... ok la... stop here...

All The Best

dunnp what to do.. so write something here... erm.. after coming back from the camp... i think i learn many thing adi... i know what the problem my band facing... what should i do... erm.. i think i must more hardwork.. last few year.. go to band like wasting time.. but now nop... we all got target... in one year.. build our band... althought i'm going to bi yet... but i still will go back to the band... and agm is coming... how they can make the band more good... dun like us... make the band more worse.. is sad of seeing this kind of thing.. 3year until now.. my band haven't grown up but down... ahli is more less now.. now what i can do is help them what i can.. teach them what i know... dun wan be like my senior... didn't teach us anything and make alot of problem for us to solve it... now the problem is solve... jus left the jonior how to think about it nia.. hope that they will grown up... not so childish adi... heheh.. they are realy childish now... but dunno after agm.. they will like what.. me also like that.. when form 3 then i starting to grown up.. after my fu dan is more... then i starting to think... no like child adi.. starting to grown up... i wan to thank my band because of if this few year.. i dun hv aktif in this aktivitis.. i dunno what kind of people i'm now... coz i learn displin in the band.. know how to care about people feeling... and many many more la... can't say easyly..... after agm dunno will have a majlis perpisahan or no.. hope got lo.. then i can cry out again.. hehehe... 5year... ever year... i cry one time at hokkien.. my band practice place there... alot of sadnees and happness has pass... hope the memori will teach me a lessen lo... and i wan to thank a very very good person... is ms.lim.. she take care of me for 5 year adi... she is a very very good people... when got chu dui.. she will ask did you all got eat breakfast? enuogh water? if no enough take a pack of water at hui yi she there then give to all people drink.. and after chu dui.. sometime will buy pizza for us to eat la.. thank you.. ms.lim
erm.. 5 year... in band.. reli sad to say goodbye.... to school and band.. bu i still will go back my band.. but my fren dunno they still will of not.... like bi yet also... is a sad thing.. all fren will go his own way... will be very very hard to stay together in a class room... study together... and chat together... play together... erm.. wish all my fren la.. know what they are doing... dun siao saio adi... so time when i saw they come school are not for study.. i quite worry about their furture.. dunno what they wan to do... when i ask them.. they say i also dunno.. walao...hope they will think la.. know what they are doing what???
i growning adi.. my fikiran no like child adi.. think must start something.. i wan to thank a girl too.. teach me alot of thing.. and i learn something for her... that i never know before... erm.. is like i know what is real love.. althought she is reject me.. but atless i feel out what is reli loving a people.. and what is shi nian.. because never shi nian before.. when my fren shi nian.. always kacau them.. now know the feeling adi.. hehe.. so know what to do when my fren shi nian... dun kn\acau him and not saying those 38 word... she is change abit adi.. but still ok la... thanks..
i think i stop here... just now no people kacau me writing so can write so long.. now.. after got people come and kacau me adi... no mood adi... hehehe.. hope all the best.. my fren!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and of cause my band!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sad thing guar... but now i'm OK

my life is so sian.. can't say sian la.. but... haiz... loving a girl... is so stressful... my mind keep coming out her face.. her voice... her everything... can't concentrade at doing anything... more stressful is about she have bf... every time.. when she talk about her bf.. i dunno what to do and what to say??? bad thing about him or good... but i always say good thing... bu ren xing saw her sad... is it being a good guys is always can't get good thing... or the thing will come later??? i always think about it... haiz.. dunno what i'm writing.. hehehe... jus write only la.. improve my english.. heheh... and give my heart more suang... if no.. keeping so many thing in heart... is so painful... sometime reli wan to kacau her when she is chatting and on phone with her bf.. but i always didn't do it.. she tell me before.. dun kacau people when they are pak tor there.. when i know she is chatting with her bf.. i will no kacau her... but my heart is no that suang... because if you dun hv bf... normally you will chatting with me..
Erm.. continue.. should i wait or..??? my fren always tell me to make them break and ask me that do u need my help to make them break?? haiz... do u think that is a good idea? i dun think so.. but sometime i will think about should i make them break?? if they are break i got chance? i dunno... but i will not do like that... this will make the girl more and more dislike me... and make her very very no happy... and if i got chance together.. i also will not few that good... so just can't do anything... just can caring her when she is sick or... accompany her when she is boring.. helping her when she is in trouble... and looking her at far far away.. sometime can call her come out to chat la... just like shou hu sen.. but is very xing ku... this few day make her angry about me liao.. 5555.. make me more stressful to think how to make her feel better.. i be honest to her.. but... she angry with me... do u will not angry a guy away lying you but make u happy or angry a guy that be honest with u? what also tell u.. will make u happy and sad... i dunno why.. i be honest.. but her angry... did i say anything wrong.. should i lie it for u.. if i say jus one ppl that know u go to pd.. how do u will treat me??? no angry me?? but now i telling u the truth.. u angry me.. haiz...
dunno wan to post this out or not... if post out.. she will saw it.. dunno she will angry with me or bu li me.. if like that then i choose not to post this.. if got change i will post it... this is write at 21/5/2005 at morning... 3a.m.
i think i post it out... i think so long about this... i think i must put down something.. if not........... SPM is coming.. this few day i bi myself to no to ms her... i know can't put it all down.. at less can put down some... i hope she will have happy and alot more la... we are will always be best friend righ???
dunno wan to say what la... but you know what i mean then good...
i'm ok now.... i think must do something for my furture... if not.. my exam sure sux... we must hard work together.. i know you also doing your best.. hehehe... just hope we will always be fren.. happy always.... ping an always...

after back from camp...

long time didn't post adi... after exam not free until today only free to write blog.. just come back for camp... the camp is my first time going to a camp like this and learn so many thing on there.... get alot of feel at the camp... is a band camp... althought i'm the only one from my band that go to the camp... but the camp is nice~~!!! know alot of thing about band... i think i going to go in their band after SPM... erm... first day... my sister fetch me go to the college... college legenda... at first i dunno the college wan.. now know adi.. erm... got 4 school student are there... one is my school lo... yu hua... one is seri kembangan.. one is ipoh school.. dunno what name.. sammeri school... dunno how to spell.. hehe... is a girl school.. but hor.. the school no leng lui come wan.. hehehe.. all very small... about form 1-3 nia... my part have 10 ppl... 6 girl... 4 boy... all are not that friendly... forgot to say something... erm.. i go to kepong baru too... i think is 28.. saturday... the school people is more friendly.. haha... at the camp... the housemate dunno how to say la.. erm.. can't chat very well with me.. i think they are very lucky band... no like my band.. the secnd day on the camp... my hostel room i think go people go in to our room and snacthor say stell something.. lucky my thing didn't gone... my wallet was inside my bag.. but didn't gone. thank god!!~~ heheh.. my fren got something missing.. money and milo.. erm.. i also got... but cheap wan.. .. hehehe... the door can't lock wan.. so we all change room.. i go to the ajk room sleep... they all go to other room sleep... i think is more fun i sleep with ajk... because i have more thing can chit chat with them.. erm... i wan my band be like them.. so good..!!~~~ i hope i can try my best best to make my band become more geng!! ok la... now very lazy adi... starting... haiz.. ok la.. stop here...